Wednesday, July 28, 2004

running to the future

tomorrow is my flight. the sky is stark white but there is thunder and bright flashes of lightning every few minutes. the rain hasn't started yet- soon, though, im sure. every flash makes me look up in fright, the lightning breaking into my space and thoughts with, literally, a bolt. i am contemplating the wedding that will happen this weekend. thom is online and we discuss it for a bit, he says he loves irony and hates fancy weddings. i say i will make the most of it; secretly envious while outwardly criticizing the extravagance. He says to me 'that's my girl'. honestly, i really don't know what to expect. weddings always leave me with an odd feeling of detachment. everyone is extremely emotional and i wish sometimes i could read the true feelings that each person is carrying. and im extremely glad that they cant read mine, however visible it might be on my face.
im overcome. rather, i will be. ill have to let you know with what, exactly, later on.

so in the meantime, forward my messages, feed Ralph and keep the lightning at bay. i will be fighting a different intruder.

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